Literally, as I sat to open my devo today, I was just praying for the ability not to give up. Not to lose heart. To be persistent.
Then I read about Winston Churchill's Commencement speech at Oxford... Six words "Never give up!" long pause... "Never give up!"
Luke 11:9 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you.
The question for me now is which of my adventures am I to be persistent about?
Still praying for my brother's decision
For Peace and Comfort in the Schrank Kenworthy and Frank families.
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
Tuesday, July 2, 2019
Just need to get this out there
I need to pray for my brother making that decision about moving his family or holding out in Georgia. I do ask for discernment. As much as that, I pray for unity with Barbara and the girls. Don't allow any wedge to be driven between them.
I also lift up the Franks and for me the confusion around it. I know that there is a lot of brokenness. But I also feel there is something bigger. I don't know what the answer is - but I fear for the future. I don't want there to be animosity between any family members. I just desire harmony to return. I don't know what the trigger was. I just pray it would be healed.
God I don't know what you are doing with me. I feel conflicted with the job training required vs the training I have to "go it alone" Help me make wise choices. I know this is the critical month for deciding about Edward Jones and whether or not to reopen that option. I just don't know. I pray you give me peace in these decisions.
Thank you so much for Dawn and her current tenacity. I don't know how to thank you enough for her creativity and hard work. I feel the blessing of her all over. I'm grateful.
Help me with my boys. I feel so frustrated. Help me. Please.
I also lift up the Franks and for me the confusion around it. I know that there is a lot of brokenness. But I also feel there is something bigger. I don't know what the answer is - but I fear for the future. I don't want there to be animosity between any family members. I just desire harmony to return. I don't know what the trigger was. I just pray it would be healed.
God I don't know what you are doing with me. I feel conflicted with the job training required vs the training I have to "go it alone" Help me make wise choices. I know this is the critical month for deciding about Edward Jones and whether or not to reopen that option. I just don't know. I pray you give me peace in these decisions.
Thank you so much for Dawn and her current tenacity. I don't know how to thank you enough for her creativity and hard work. I feel the blessing of her all over. I'm grateful.
Help me with my boys. I feel so frustrated. Help me. Please.
Thursday, June 20, 2019
We continue
Rejoice in the Lord always, I say it again, rejoice. Philippians 4:4
There is work on the horizon. Jefferson is facing trials. I pray that you would work in his heart more than the system. I pray that you would change him from the inside and let him know that you are looking out for him. I pray that this moment in his life would be separating him from his destructive habits. I pray that you would replace those vices with your Spirit. Fill him in such a way that he knows your voice and follows it. Never let him go. Let him always feel comfortable running to you instead of running to escape.
I pray for Paula. I know that the loss of her mother in law is going to weigh heavy on her. I know that you have made her strong and she is no stranger to adversity. Help her now be strong again and be strong for her extended family. I pray that we honor her well.
Again, I pray for my boys and ask that you move in them as you move in me. Help me to lead again by my example and not by my words.
There is work on the horizon. Jefferson is facing trials. I pray that you would work in his heart more than the system. I pray that you would change him from the inside and let him know that you are looking out for him. I pray that this moment in his life would be separating him from his destructive habits. I pray that you would replace those vices with your Spirit. Fill him in such a way that he knows your voice and follows it. Never let him go. Let him always feel comfortable running to you instead of running to escape.
I pray for Paula. I know that the loss of her mother in law is going to weigh heavy on her. I know that you have made her strong and she is no stranger to adversity. Help her now be strong again and be strong for her extended family. I pray that we honor her well.
Again, I pray for my boys and ask that you move in them as you move in me. Help me to lead again by my example and not by my words.
Wednesday, June 19, 2019
Attacked by Humility
The Lord has shown me how spiritually proud I am. I think I'm better than... my kids.
I think this is the hardest thing for me to comprehend but logically I know it to be true. The very things that I want them to do, I stopped doing long ago. Where I want them to live humbly, I live with pride. And so my kids don't see me as an example, just as a story teller.
Jesus lived it, even though they hated on him, he continued to live humbly. I need to do the same. Too many times I've used the words of how my children's action appears as hatred toward me.
It doesn't matter. I will change and do what needs to be done. And I will pray for change in them.
God, change my heart again. Make ME who you want ME to be. Make me humble in all areas. Humble enough to ask for help. Humble enough to apologize. Humble enough to do simple work. Humble enough to put others first.
God I pray for my boys. I pray for Solomon and ask that you help him to finish well and find the dream he is chasing. Let me be OK with his choices and let him find love where you have set it in his heart. I pray also for Sydney as she looks to join him in this adventure of life. May you bless them and help them to be in unity. Challenge them and grow them in your love. Give them your heart for others.
Please work in Nathan as well. I pray for his wisdom. His heart is big. I don't understand why he has failed to find work. Please change this. Help him to find success this summer. Help me to get out of the way.
Help Jesse in his studies and in his ability to understand. Help him to rise up and take responsibility for his life. He is capable. Help his priorities to be his actions. And help him to find you and make you his Priority.
The same with Andrew. He is so gifted. Thank you for all you have put in him. Let his heart be filled with the things of you that he might pursue you first, ahead of worldly actions. Help Dawn and I to guide him toward a life of meaning rather than a life of emptiness.
Last, help me to see Dawn for the amazing woman she is. Help me to recognize her work and give her praise for sustaining us all this time.
I think this is the hardest thing for me to comprehend but logically I know it to be true. The very things that I want them to do, I stopped doing long ago. Where I want them to live humbly, I live with pride. And so my kids don't see me as an example, just as a story teller.
Jesus lived it, even though they hated on him, he continued to live humbly. I need to do the same. Too many times I've used the words of how my children's action appears as hatred toward me.
It doesn't matter. I will change and do what needs to be done. And I will pray for change in them.
God, change my heart again. Make ME who you want ME to be. Make me humble in all areas. Humble enough to ask for help. Humble enough to apologize. Humble enough to do simple work. Humble enough to put others first.
God I pray for my boys. I pray for Solomon and ask that you help him to finish well and find the dream he is chasing. Let me be OK with his choices and let him find love where you have set it in his heart. I pray also for Sydney as she looks to join him in this adventure of life. May you bless them and help them to be in unity. Challenge them and grow them in your love. Give them your heart for others.
Please work in Nathan as well. I pray for his wisdom. His heart is big. I don't understand why he has failed to find work. Please change this. Help him to find success this summer. Help me to get out of the way.
Help Jesse in his studies and in his ability to understand. Help him to rise up and take responsibility for his life. He is capable. Help his priorities to be his actions. And help him to find you and make you his Priority.
The same with Andrew. He is so gifted. Thank you for all you have put in him. Let his heart be filled with the things of you that he might pursue you first, ahead of worldly actions. Help Dawn and I to guide him toward a life of meaning rather than a life of emptiness.
Last, help me to see Dawn for the amazing woman she is. Help me to recognize her work and give her praise for sustaining us all this time.
Wednesday, April 3, 2019
Late Start
I think I'm just tired, but my neck hurts and I wasn't my best at the game last night. I was frustrated by some poor calls by the referee. We lost, but it wasn't as bad as the scoreline indicated.
I need a reset. Help me to reel in my emotions about the referees.
Help me to be slower to speak.
Help me not to judge.
I need a reset. Help me to reel in my emotions about the referees.
Help me to be slower to speak.
Help me not to judge.
Tuesday, April 2, 2019
Good Morning
Adoration
All I have to give.
You were born into our depraved world, you had nothing. You gave us love in the truest sense.
You are God with us, God for us. The unspeakable name, I AM.
Declaration/Confession
Thank you, Lord, for my salvation. I receive it in a new and fresh way from You, and I declare that nothing can separate me now from the love of Christ and the place I shall ever have in Your kingdom.
I wear Your righteousness today against all condemnation and corruption. Fit me with Your holiness and purity— defend me from all assaults against my heart.
Lord, I put on truth. I choose a lifestyle of honesty and integrity. Show me the truths I so desperately need today. Expose the lies that I am not even aware that I believe.
I do choose to live for the gospel at any moment. Show me where You are working and lead me to it. Do not let me become slack in my walk.
I lift the confidence that You are good against every lie and every assault of the enemy. You have good in store for me. Nothing is coming today that can overcome me because You are with me.
Holy Spirit, show me specifically today the truths of the Word of God that I will need to counter the snares of the enemy. Bring them to mind throughout the day.
I confess my frustrations with my progress to you. I am frustrated. You have hidden the good from me that I'm supposed to find. Where should I look for your directions? How can I find your good intentions for me? Help me to set aside these frustrations and listen more closely to your calling.
Thanksgiving
I am grateful for an early start today. I pray that this helps me to feel the benefits of time. I pray you would help my hands as they work. Let me find the joy of my labor.
I thank you again for my family who is around me, supporting me. I pray that you would bless them and give them the ability to recognize your hand in our hardship. Help them to recognize how much we are trusting in you and how this helps.
Supplication
Let me be honest and say I need help in my unbelief. There is "Rob can do it." and then there is "God is doing it." I know that I need to study, get a certificate, apply for something - but what about you bringing that job I've been searching for during these last five years. Where is the fulfillment of knowing you are taking care of me? I see your provision, but is this my best? I feel down trodden and lame. I feel like an poor example of your follower. Why would anybody follow me to you when this is the path?
I know it isn't easy. I know you never promised luxury - but I'm not effective for you. I'm dead. I'm lost.
Love
I lean into your unconditional love. It is all I do know. It is all I know to give.
All I have to give.
You were born into our depraved world, you had nothing. You gave us love in the truest sense.
You are God with us, God for us. The unspeakable name, I AM.
Declaration/Confession
Thank you, Lord, for my salvation. I receive it in a new and fresh way from You, and I declare that nothing can separate me now from the love of Christ and the place I shall ever have in Your kingdom.
I wear Your righteousness today against all condemnation and corruption. Fit me with Your holiness and purity— defend me from all assaults against my heart.
Lord, I put on truth. I choose a lifestyle of honesty and integrity. Show me the truths I so desperately need today. Expose the lies that I am not even aware that I believe.
I do choose to live for the gospel at any moment. Show me where You are working and lead me to it. Do not let me become slack in my walk.
I lift the confidence that You are good against every lie and every assault of the enemy. You have good in store for me. Nothing is coming today that can overcome me because You are with me.
I confess my frustrations with my progress to you. I am frustrated. You have hidden the good from me that I'm supposed to find. Where should I look for your directions? How can I find your good intentions for me? Help me to set aside these frustrations and listen more closely to your calling.
Thanksgiving
I am grateful for an early start today. I pray that this helps me to feel the benefits of time. I pray you would help my hands as they work. Let me find the joy of my labor.
I thank you again for my family who is around me, supporting me. I pray that you would bless them and give them the ability to recognize your hand in our hardship. Help them to recognize how much we are trusting in you and how this helps.
Supplication
Let me be honest and say I need help in my unbelief. There is "Rob can do it." and then there is "God is doing it." I know that I need to study, get a certificate, apply for something - but what about you bringing that job I've been searching for during these last five years. Where is the fulfillment of knowing you are taking care of me? I see your provision, but is this my best? I feel down trodden and lame. I feel like an poor example of your follower. Why would anybody follow me to you when this is the path?
I know it isn't easy. I know you never promised luxury - but I'm not effective for you. I'm dead. I'm lost.
Love
I lean into your unconditional love. It is all I do know. It is all I know to give.
Monday, April 1, 2019
Here
Adoration
You are amazing, outside our world and inside our hearts. You orchestrated my days and know my thoughts. And you desire obedience over sacrifice. help me to be in sync with your will.
Declaration/Confession
Thank you, Lord, for my salvation. I receive it in a new and fresh way from You, and I declare that nothing can separate me now from the love of Christ and the place I shall ever have in Your kingdom.
I wear Your righteousness today against all condemnation and corruption. Fit me with Your holiness and purity— defend me from all assaults against my heart.
Lord, I put on truth. I choose a lifestyle of honesty and integrity. Show me the truths I so desperately need today. Expose the lies that I am not even aware that I believe.
I do choose to live for the gospel at any moment. Show me where You are working and lead me to it. Do not let me become slack in my walk.
I lift the confidence that You are good against every lie and every assault of the enemy. You have good in store for me. Nothing is coming today that can overcome me because You are with me.
Holy Spirit, show me specifically today the truths of the Word of God that I will need to counter the snares of the enemy. Bring them to mind throughout the day.
Forgive me again for my laziness. Help me to be productive and active against it.
Thanksgiving
Thank you for another day - a day where you have provided. Each day I find myself at peace, I wonder again at how. Why. But I find my trust in you growing. Help me to continue to trust. Thank you for the peace.
Here I am, looking to you for clarity. It is not in me to know. I want to know. Bring to light the path that I'm to walk with Dawn and the boys.
Thank you for family, for the love and support they have been.
Thank you for Andrew's health returning.
Supplication
I pray for Jesse today, and the debate. I know that this is not his strong suit. I pray you would give him quick wit when he needs it. Give him confidence to stand firm on his convictions. Let him enjoy the process.
I pray Dawn's day is fun and the students enjoy their classes. I pray you help her with the photography that she is pursuing. Help the pieces to fall into place. Give me faith to support her.
Again, I pray for my own future. Help me to see clearly what I need to pursue. Help me to know the path you want me to walk down. Let me find fulfillment in the work of my hands and feet.
Help me to choose the path.
Love
You are amazing, outside our world and inside our hearts. You orchestrated my days and know my thoughts. And you desire obedience over sacrifice. help me to be in sync with your will.
Declaration/Confession
Thank you, Lord, for my salvation. I receive it in a new and fresh way from You, and I declare that nothing can separate me now from the love of Christ and the place I shall ever have in Your kingdom.
I wear Your righteousness today against all condemnation and corruption. Fit me with Your holiness and purity— defend me from all assaults against my heart.
Lord, I put on truth. I choose a lifestyle of honesty and integrity. Show me the truths I so desperately need today. Expose the lies that I am not even aware that I believe.
I do choose to live for the gospel at any moment. Show me where You are working and lead me to it. Do not let me become slack in my walk.
I lift the confidence that You are good against every lie and every assault of the enemy. You have good in store for me. Nothing is coming today that can overcome me because You are with me.
Forgive me again for my laziness. Help me to be productive and active against it.
Thanksgiving
Thank you for another day - a day where you have provided. Each day I find myself at peace, I wonder again at how. Why. But I find my trust in you growing. Help me to continue to trust. Thank you for the peace.
Here I am, looking to you for clarity. It is not in me to know. I want to know. Bring to light the path that I'm to walk with Dawn and the boys.
Thank you for family, for the love and support they have been.
Thank you for Andrew's health returning.
Supplication
I pray for Jesse today, and the debate. I know that this is not his strong suit. I pray you would give him quick wit when he needs it. Give him confidence to stand firm on his convictions. Let him enjoy the process.
I pray Dawn's day is fun and the students enjoy their classes. I pray you help her with the photography that she is pursuing. Help the pieces to fall into place. Give me faith to support her.
Again, I pray for my own future. Help me to see clearly what I need to pursue. Help me to know the path you want me to walk down. Let me find fulfillment in the work of my hands and feet.
Help me to choose the path.
Love
More than anything, I pray you fill me with love today that I might pour it out on others. Keep my tank full.
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